| Good morning everyone! Today although it is early morning I am awake. I have coffee in hand.
My love affair with caffeine has had its own tribulations. Through the course of my university degree I resisted its seductive throngs. Insisting to myself that, to be health I must not succumb to it as a stimulant. Such a problem I had with this… I would eat healthy, get more then enough sleep (including frequent napping) and still be exhausted through out the day. I was distraught by this, I thought I had an iron deficiency for a long time, and attempted to compensate with extra vitamins in defiance of caffeine. At last I went to my doctor… in an attempt to find out what was wrong with me…
“Depression” he said. I replied confused, “What?” You see though I am not an expert on the subject I have spent many years studying depression throughout the course of my degree in Psychology. I know how it affects you when you are old, and young, and the typical causes of it. I also know the treatments of it, what it does to the brain and body. I am an informed patient. This was quite a few years ago, so when I heard the words depression leave his lips, I only remember being confused – but I must have looked very confused. Wait, doesn’t depression REQUIRE sadness? I mean isn’t it classified by not feeling happy, dysphoria, or having a depressed mood? There are other ways to have depression, sure, but you need to have practically all the symptoms if you are missing the depressed mood piece. My doctor after registering my unsure disposition said, “We will get you on a good medicine called Paxil right away.” Paxil is a typical anti-depressant, which also deals with anxiety, and depression pair with anxiety. It also has very VERY unpleasant side effects. However, for persons who are depressed or anxious it could make a huge difference in their Quality of Life. But I wasn’t, I just didn’t have energy. I thanked my Doctor for his professional opinion and walked out of the office. If I’m going to choose a legal addictive stimulant, I will choose the one with the easiest access..
Many months ago, I gave in, to the dark-side.. or at least the dark roast. I just function better with caffeine in my life.
- Marie-Claire
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